Saturday, September 19, 2009

Oh Billy, boy, when is it you'll find what you're looking for.

Here's a nice piece of shit!

So I'm blogging again, decided to stop being lazy. The title and the first line, if you didn't know, is from Billy Madison. I think I'm going to name all my posts after some of my favorite movie quotes, and coincidentally, I think this one kind of relates to the post.

Well, I've been in South Carolina for about 2 months now, pretty much settled in, made some friends, got to know the town and am making money. Next step, try to take some classes.

But, I'm not sure if I like this life down here. Yea, I have money now, yea I'm closer to my niece and nephews and of course my sisters. I have met some cool people and I'm real close to a beautiful beach, but I don't really feel in place here. Now before I go on, I want to make sure people don't think this is some kind of whiny emo pussy post, I'm not whining, I'm not depressed or sad or anything like that, this is just how I feel and isn't that what blogging is really all about?


As shitty as a lot of people think and say Michigan is, I love it, I belong there. I have great friends there, the type of friends that I don't ever think I can find more like them. There the type of people that were exactly like me, I could chill with them and just hang out and have a great time no matter what we're doing. They never judged me no matter what. We liked all the same things, did all the same things, understood each other, had the exact same sense of humor, and I just can't find people down here like that. Of course, I still talk to my friends and I always here about them doing things that we always did while I was there that we did in routine, such as GBI on Mondays, Tom's on the weekends, Playland during a week day, The Loft whenever we wanted to, or just chillin at each others houses. Things I never really thought to be too special, until I no longer had them.

Needless to say, I miss my friends. I miss you guys, and especially the solid core group of friends I do all those things with. I grew up with two sisters, but hanging out with them, I finally felt like I had brothers. I moved 1,000 miles away and can't stop planning what we're going to do when I come home to visit for New Year's.

Don't get me wrong, I love being closer to my sisters and their children, I love being Uncle Adam, I love helping them with their homework and being able to be a part of their development, but, as selfish as it may sound, this isn't really for me. I'm a Michigander, I belong there. I love going up north, I love lakes, not oceans, I love warm weather, not hot weather. As dreadful as they are sometimes, I love the winter, I love snow. Minus not being able to find a job, my life seemed perfect in Michigan and I didn't really want it to change, but because of the terrible economy in Michigan, it was forced to change, it had to change.

Now, you can call me what you want, a homebody, a pussy, selfish, weak, whatever you want, I don't really care. My life is in Michigan, I belong in Michigan. I'm determined to give this place a shot, so it's not like I'm testing the waters and leaving at the first sign of being uncomfortable. I'm giving it a chance for my sisters because I know they love me and miss me when I'm in Michigan, my sister damn near cried when I left the first time. So I'm going to stay for a bit, I'm thinking 2 years. Because if there is one good thing about being down here, it's that I am driven by priorities and responsibilities. That is one thing I had a hard time doing in Michigan. So I'm going to try to go through an irresponsibility detox down here for about 2 years, save as much money as possible, get the job training I planned on getting while down here, and then probably come back to Michigan once I feel like I've done all I can/need to down here and start off on the right foot on my homecoming. Be a new and improved me, the same me, but just improved.

OO-EH from the Souf,
Kal El

"Secrets must be exposed when found. Detours must be taken when encountered. And if you are the one who stands at the crossroads or the place of concealment, you must never leave it to another to act in your place."-Qui-Gon Jinn